Thanks so much for your positive comments after my last rant. I must confess that the "defeatedness" has gotten the better of me, but not the best. I am still doing things, but I have been sleeping away much of the day which is not good for my contract job, (my regular job I can do at 3:00am if I want to), so I need to shake this right away. And Isabella continues to be in everything right away. She is in her bed for a "time out" for the second day in a row. (Do they even understand time outs at 15 months????).
I have however found the courage to pray for a miraculous-knock-off-your-socks blessing. I know that I don't deserve it, as we deserve nothing really, but I want it. I've been learning about holiness, which I'll post about after Bible Study tonight, and how it means being real with God. So I've been praying my heart out. Sarah did it and got a baby way after her childbearing years. There hasn't been any news or anything, but I've been praying. There is a great loss of passion here in our friend circle, which we've deemed PBS (Post Bible School Syndrome) as our entire group is Bible School grads waiting to be hired and that is hard after all the work you put into your degree.
The Elder's board at Georgetown meets on Thursday night and we were told we would know what they would be providing for us after that. As in we'll know how many hours Nick will be expected to be there and his job description and his pay. So at least we'll know something. I think that will put the stress in perspective a bit.
I just wanted to say thanks for the prayers, I do really appreciate them and I'll let you know if that blessing ever gets here.