Saturday, September 15, 2007

My Honesty

When I write posts like the last two and unleash unto cyberspace, (and a few readers), the thoughts which I am currently processing I don't do it to sound super spiritual; I don't do it hoping a bazillion people will leave a comment about how great I truly am. I write honestly because I honestly believe I am not the only one processing what I'm processing.

One of the greatest traps of being a woman is the compare game. And we all do it. Most of us probably do it on a regular basis. But we don't talk about it. We walk around pretending that we don't or saying honest things followed by a zillion giggles so that no one else feels uncomfortable.

And honestly that bugs me. I would much rather get to know the heart of each person I've ever known. To get to know you without your make up on, in your sweats, gobbling a pint of ice cream. I would rather get to know you at 3:00 am while soothing a colicky baby. One of my relational cravings is intentional personal relationships, and you can't get those if you're not honest and vulnerable.

So, my honesty is hopefully a door. A door to get to know you honestly. And that's all.

6 comments:

Amanda Brown said...

Your last few posts have been very poignant and thought-provoking, causing me to take a step back and do some processing of my own. Thanks for being so honest, as always, Amanda.

Jen said...

"To get to know you without your make up on, in your sweats, gobbling a pint of ice cream. I would rather get to know you at 3:00 am while soothing a colicky baby."

YES! I crave that type of close relationship too. Exactly that.

So true what you said about comparing too. I'm just as guilty as the next gal.

Elizabeth said...

I'll also thank you for being honest and say that I always really appreciate it, but admit that I haven't had the chance to read your confessions yet. I'll be back, though... promise.

Tara said...

yep, I'm with ya!

Lamb said...

I totally get what you are saying.
I thought that by my age I would have stopped the comparing game. I should be mature enough by now. But obviously I still have a lot of growing to do. I guess that will continue till I leave this world.
Since we are being totally honest and vulnerable I can say to you, Amanda, that I really would like to know you and communicate with you in the same way. I would love to have a close, real relationship with my favourite daughter-in-law.
I love you and Nick and the girls so much it hurts. I am so proud of you and what you are doing with your life.
God bless
Susan
John 14:27

Jill said...

Blogs are weird. You can be as honest as you'd like but, who exactly is reading them?
I've really appreciated how real you are in your posts. Your courage has been a good push for me to be more vulnerable.
Thanks!