Monday, January 08, 2007
Sleep becomes her.
Unfortunately that her is not me. I have the worst case of insomnia ever. Usually when I get insomnia it's because I have a huge project on the go. Like in college when I pulled all nighters even though the paper wasn't due for two weeks. As soon as I get into something I need to see it through. Sometimes my insomnia comes when my internal clock is all out of whack, like when I worked in the banquet department of a hotel and was often, but not always, up until 3:00am. But the worse times to get insomnia are when I'm stressed out. When all my mind does is try to think about things I cannot solve. This is just one of those such times. There is a sticky situation coming up in our near future that I haven't a clue how to solve. I sit around a lot during the day trying to think of an ingenious solution but there isn't any to be found as far as I can tell. Now, I know there is a solution and it will just take someone with expertise in the area to help us solve it, and we happen to know such a person! But, getting our schedule to jive with their schedule seems to be somewhat more difficult than I anticipated. I know that once we do meet with them the steps we need to take will be laid out and we'll begin taking them, and for some reason I feel that should be enough to give me ease of mind. But as this insomnia proves it just isn't. I laid in bed for four hours tonight trying to sleep. I tried to daydream about being on a cruise. I tried to count really slowly. I tried to get up and pee and get back into bed. Obviously none of it has worked as I am at the computer at 2:30am. Insomnia sucks. Especially when I have two little children that will be up in 5 hours and need me for the next 13. I can't believe I used to choose to stay up this late!
Posted by Amanda Franks at 11:19 PM