So I had my pre-natal appointment today. I was so nervous. Last night I could not sleep. I was gearing myself up and talking myself into "nothing is the end of the world", but all I could see when I closed my eyes was the doctor pulling out that awesome machine that hears the heartbeat and she would say "um, I'm sorry...."
But all of that gearing up was in vain because there was totally a heartbeat! Yay. A sweet sounding 150 beats a minute, which I do believe is in the healthy range. No high blood pressure, measuring right on with the 16 weeks I am. Good Good. I am however not putting on any weight and have been ordered to eat-A LOT in the next four weeks before I go back. You think that would be welcome advice, but I have zero appetite for some reason. I am just not hungry until about 9:00pm. How does that happen? So I'll be trying to eat more these weeks and probably starting a food log or something to see what I really am eating. Chips, check. Smarties check. Coke check. That's going to need some work.
Our first ultrasound is set for May 10 at 8:00 in the morning. I'm not even usually conscious at 8:00am but I'll be bouncing that day for sure. Hopefully it will put the rest of my fears to rest, or at the very least give a name to my fears and I can deal with anything I need to then. But, Nick keeps on telling me how great God is and that there is nothing wrong with our little bean, he's just growing that amazing love in us that we'll know before we even meet this little one that we would die for them. And that blows me away.
So it was a good update, and just one heartbeat, (I was secretly hoping for twins, but there's not any in my family lineage. I'll have to be pregnant and give birth four times to get all the kids I want, no shortcuts for me!).
Hope you guys are having a great day as well and that you got some news that made you smile!